Before i talk about the next few chapters of this little saga, I need to give a special mention to The Gobby One. I’m currently writing these blogs from my bedroom in a pyciatric hosptial; the one they found me a bed in. Just this evening a member of the staff here returned from the AMU with a message for me from The Gobby One; “Hope you;re doing o.k and don’t forget my letter.
This both lifted my heart and brought me to tears. There was one stand out amazing lady in the AMU that i was in. A lady who is grossly underpaid and undervalued but one who made my life bearable for those few days in the AMU. She allowed me supervised respiete from the ward in the relatives room, gave me a shoulder to cry on but more importantly she chatted endless rounds of shite with me. We talked about Karate and Judo, Dog walkers, Crappy Tv and Poo!!! in fact we had several conversations about poo, but when all you can think about is escaping, giving up completely, doing it right next time and not phoning 999, Believe me when i tell you that talking about poo is a tonic for the soul.
So if you ever see this, please know that for those little moments you spent with me, life was bearable again, and i thank you from the bottom of my heart. YOU WILL GET YOUR LETTER!!!!!
Much love
Loopy x