35. Dreams: (Lucid?)

I’ve been having some very weird dreams lately and they’re always very stressful scenarios.  It’s hard to explain.  I’ll wake up frequently and when I dose of again its back to the same dream. in some cases I would say they are lucid but I can’t control them, I just know that its not reality.

So last nights I was a tour guide at a remodelled house from the 1800/s where a family had died.  The father I think murdered his wife and child.  It was a model of the house, not the actual house itself so I guess it was a tourist attraction really.  Kind off felt like going around Anne Franks house in Amsterdam.

So why was I stressed.  I was stressed because there were loads of visitors all asking questions some of which I didn’t know the answers to.  There were a couple of wheelchair users who couldn’t access the upstairs part of the tour.  We had a lift, but get this; it was basically a wooden box will a pulley rope to allow dogs up but not people. The stairs were more like a ladder. There were people complaining that it had no authenticity about it; I’d agree, a dining area had laminate flooring and a modern marble tiled enclosed fireplace! I’d stand there trying to justify how this was like the 1800’s.

There was a bar upstairs, more like a roof top beer garden, and I’d keep getting told off for not reminding the guests downstairs to go up and use it.  I’d go off to get members of the public information leaflets or whatever and I’d somehow end up outside, and get completely lost finding my way back. I’d end up in some big red brick industrial estate.  (I’m always getting lost so this little detail is probably unsurprising).  It was sooooooooooooo stressful.

I woke up anxious. (several times throughout the night)

Loopy x.

Author: insideloopyshead

On paper I have the perfect life, good career, supportive and loving partner and a beautiful little son. But today I want to die. It’s time to set my thoughts free. Come along with my daily mental adventures and gain insight into warped thinking and it’s hazards and maybe support me along the way.

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