36. Weight gain

2 kg!!! another flipping 2 kg since I’ve come in here.  I’m devastated by those numbers on the scale; 59 Kg! The heaviest I’ve ever been in my life was 60 kg and that was the last time my mood was so low.

I feel absolutely grtoesque.  I’ve not even been binging whilst in here.  That’s it, I’m cutting all my portions in half.  I can’t get fat, I just can’t.  I’m thinking now of the Merchant of Venace; “a pound of flesh”.  Could I cut away the fat without any blood loss?

We all know the answer to that one.  Meds or weight gain??? It’s a cruel joke really that all these meds that are supposed to improve your mood, can lead to more self hatred.

Loopy x.

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