2 kg!!! another flipping 2 kg since I’ve come in here. I’m devastated by those numbers on the scale; 59 Kg! The heaviest I’ve ever been in my life was 60 kg and that was the last time my mood was so low.
I feel absolutely grtoesque. I’ve not even been binging whilst in here. That’s it, I’m cutting all my portions in half. I can’t get fat, I just can’t. I’m thinking now of the Merchant of Venace; “a pound of flesh”. Could I cut away the fat without any blood loss?
We all know the answer to that one. Meds or weight gain??? It’s a cruel joke really that all these meds that are supposed to improve your mood, can lead to more self hatred.