I think I mentioned this in a previous post but I have shared the address for this blog with one of our excellent nurses. Since sharing it, I’d been feeling really awkward around her and I managed to tell her that today. She was lovely, and I needn’t have feared anything. Though I’m still not sure if she has read any of this or not.
We had quite a nice conversation and I managed to tell her how suicidal I am really feeling, and the method I’ve been using to burn.. l think I might pluck up the courage to talk to her more. Once she left I took out my frustration on Wilson and smacked him of the wall for about an hour I reckon.
The frustration by the way stemmed from a PTSD trigger in a relaxation session that was a little unexpected. Telling me to imagine calmly drifting out to sea, brought up some stuff, but the poor staff member wasn’t to know.
Tonight I’m both mentally and psychically tired. Hopefully I will sleep sound.