52. Being stalked.

If my mood today was a class exam grades profile, it would be the perfect bell curve.  It’s weird how you can be so low, and then up, and then low again in the same day. There was a little trigger I guess that started this afternoons low.  A staff member commented on how I’m burning myself.  So that means that the nurse I confided in told them all.  I’m mad at her for doing so but also astute enough to know that it’s her job and in my best interests really.

I’m now feeling rather paranoid though, like everyone has been talking about me.  Also the staff member on the two’s (the more regular checks) is taking the job rather seriously so I feel like I’m being stalked.  I’m not off course, but all I want to do right now is burn, and its proving rather tricky to find the breaks amongst the stalking. I really do need to develop better coping strategies, when I’m low.

Also my hair is a frigging mess and I’m too nervous to ask to use the hair straighteners.

Loopy x.

Author: insideloopyshead

On paper I have the perfect life, good career, supportive and loving partner and a beautiful little son. But today I want to die. It’s time to set my thoughts free. Come along with my daily mental adventures and gain insight into warped thinking and it’s hazards and maybe support me along the way.

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