63.Today my heart is aching.

Today my heart aches.  Today I miss my son.  Today all I want to do is hug him, play with him and tell him that I love him.  Today I want to be his Mum.

I’ve cried a river this morning longing for my little man, though the waves of self doubt and guilt also flowed. I had a good chat with a fantastic staff member, and I’m so grateful for that space today.  I needed to talk and today I could.  She settled me and supportively challenged my perceptions of myself.   I would have burned, I needed to; but she rode that wave with me and it passed.

Today I want to get better, for me and for my family. . My goal today is to not self harm.

Loopy x.

Author: insideloopyshead

On paper I have the perfect life, good career, supportive and loving partner and a beautiful little son. But today I want to die. It’s time to set my thoughts free. Come along with my daily mental adventures and gain insight into warped thinking and it’s hazards and maybe support me along the way.

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