I honestly don’t know which one I would choose today. There is so much conflict in my head. I’ve just caught sight of my expanding belly fat in the mirror and it’s grotesque. I’m thinking about my son and my OH and how difficult I am to be around for them. I’m thinking life’s too hard, and yet I’ve invested so much in it to get where I am now. I’m thinking my career is ruined. I’m thinking my family are ashamed of me. My head is racing with the pros and cons of life and death.
Mornings are never good.
I need to kick Wilson for a bit.