75. “You need to get back to your son”

A simple comment by another patient that sparked a quick downward spiral.  I’m not missing him today, and I’m mad at myself for that.  I’ve been having better days, and I’ve not seen my son in weeks.  Is our bond ireparably broken? I’m a horrible mother.  I’m a horrible person.  I need to burn.

I needed distracting from these thoughts. A game of draughts with a member of staff has settled me a little (and prevented me from burning).

Today the confilct in my head is edging (see 74), towards the injection.  My moods really are all over the place.

Loopy x.

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On paper I have the perfect life, good career, supportive and loving partner and a beautiful little son. But today I want to die. It’s time to set my thoughts free. Come along with my daily mental adventures and gain insight into warped thinking and it’s hazards and maybe support me along the way. View all posts by insideloopyshead