78. And Breathe……….

Sounds so simple doesn’t it.  “Just breathe. Inhale slowly and exhale noticing the weight of your body in the chair.”

I had a psychology session today.  It went well. I can talk freely and she puts me at ease. We ended however with a calming breathing excercise. I had to stop!

I thought that my inability to temper my emotions during the relaxation sessions in here were due to hearing water sounds.  It is true that hearing/seeing water, or being out by the beach etc does remind me of that awful day.  Today however there was no water, just breaths, and I was triggered.

During that diving incident that I’ve blogged about previously; in the panic and frenzy underwater; I had to share by air supply with my instructor. For what felt like an eternity we passed my regulator to and fro so that we both could breathe. Holding my breath in those moments was indescribable. Those tight chested anxious sensationss came rushing back today at the end of the psych session.

I stopped her before I became overwhelmed, and I’m calm now.  I just need a gym session.

Loopy x.

Author: insideloopyshead

On paper I have the perfect life, good career, supportive and loving partner and a beautiful little son. But today I want to die. It’s time to set my thoughts free. Come along with my daily mental adventures and gain insight into warped thinking and it’s hazards and maybe support me along the way.

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