“You just need to be more positive in your reviews”; it was an off the cuff remark by someone in here today. It triggered a flood. I’ve been deflated today, feel mad at myself for not making enough progress, feel like the worst mother in the world, feel like I’m never going to get out of here or be ready to get out of here, and then that comment. It came from a good place and kind hearted person but it stung like a thousand bees. It’s my families just get on with already attitude.
There they were again, those intrusive ” just kill yourself already” thoughts that frequent my brain. I can’t do this. How the hell do I bounce back from all this? How the hell do I turn off the self loathing and hatred I hold towards myself.
It’s so exhausting.
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Those casual, offhand remarks, like a punch in the gut, are the worst