I’ve just pulled on my pj’s and causght sight of myself in the mirror. I have more rolls than a bakery!!!! I am becoming grotesquely fat. I am disguisted in myself. I’ve not had any gym sessions this week, partly due to my quietiapine hangovers (which today have eased) but also because the staff member who brings me over hasn’t come around.
Looking at myself is making me want to take a scalpel to my mid section. Not literally off course but I would love to rid myself off this fat.
Feeling very ugly tonight.