96. Another lost ball and a burn.

It’s been one of those days; the kind of day where you struggle to keep calm.  Where you’re whole body shakes because you cannot cope with the pent up emotions and to top it off, it was hectic on the ward today. Today I asked to be locked out of my room for a little while.  I was struggling to keep my head, and apply logic to my situation.  Today I wanted to give up. There was that desire to ligature again.  I hate that such a temptation is now occupying my mind.  I’ve never done it or wanted to do it before coming in here. But I guess with limited resources, it’s just the go to thing.

I’ve lost another ball over the roof and I’ve burned.  The burn is quite painful tonight.

Loopy x.

Author: insideloopyshead

On paper I have the perfect life, good career, supportive and loving partner and a beautiful little son. But today I want to die. It’s time to set my thoughts free. Come along with my daily mental adventures and gain insight into warped thinking and it’s hazards and maybe support me along the way. View all posts by insideloopyshead