115. Stupid, stupid, STUPID!

The skies are still grey and weepy.  Not even a bike could bring out any rainbows today.  I’ve started googling again, same sites, same price, same temptation.  If I had them now, I’d go to the beach, ditch my bike and bid farewell to this perpetual fire. Or would I? I don’t even know.

I’ve still not heard a peep from my family. I’m in a city where “you’ll never walk alone” and yet I stand forlorn.

I’ve binged and puked. Stupid, Stupid, Stupid!!!!!

Loopy x.

Author: insideloopyshead

On paper I have the perfect life, good career, supportive and loving partner and a beautiful little son. But today I want to die. It’s time to set my thoughts free. Come along with my daily mental adventures and gain insight into warped thinking and it’s hazards and maybe support me along the way. View all posts by insideloopyshead