129. Fat fat fat, and failing.

I’ve not worked any muscles today except for my jaw!!! My body is disgusting! No gym or bike, just a brief stroll with little man to the beach that ended in a tantrum.  I wanted to cry too.

I’m rapidly losing hope that the future will be any brighter.  I’m zapped of energy and for the 4th time now in a couple of months, I have yet another bout of Paronychia from munching my nails so incessantly. Little man definitely deserves better than me.  He has a nappy rash this evening and its due to my neglect. I forgot to change him earlier. I feel so bad.

OH comes home in the evenings and barely speaks to me or little man.  I can barely speak to him either.  We’re struggling.

I have psychology tomorrow, I guess that’s something.

Loopy x.

Author: insideloopyshead

On paper I have the perfect life, good career, supportive and loving partner and a beautiful little son. But today I want to die. It’s time to set my thoughts free. Come along with my daily mental adventures and gain insight into warped thinking and it’s hazards and maybe support me along the way. View all posts by insideloopyshead