It’s no wonder really; that I burned out. Working full time, commuting everyday with Little man on trains at rush hour and having absolutely no support outside myself and OH. I did the commute again this morning to ease Little man back into nursery. I’m already exhausted and I’m not yet back at work. I walk approx 4 miles everyday, just to go from my door to my office and home again. It doesn’t sound like much but one of those miles is up hill, pushing a heavy toddler, often in darkness with pouring rain and gusting winds. Those are the days, that I long to be able to drive. One thing is for sure, I 100% cannot go back full time. I’ll burn out again by Christmas.
I didn’t sleep last night at all. Honestly, I was awake until at least 4am and then it was broken. Something needs to be done about my inability to sleep. I can’t continue feeling like this.