145. Thin and miserable or…..

Fat and happy. I can’t find happiness though, beneath the rolls of fat.

I’m back in my own house again, and have been to the gym. I really needed those exercise induced endorphins today. I’ve been crashing.

No amount of exercise can combat this horrible weight gain though. I feel grotesque and really want to stop my meds. My head is full of conflict. It’s a familiar feeling but an unwelcome one. I’m beginning to fear food. I’m calorie counting and I’m stressed.

Loopy x

Author: insideloopyshead

On paper I have the perfect life, good career, supportive and loving partner and a beautiful little son. But today I want to die. It’s time to set my thoughts free. Come along with my daily mental adventures and gain insight into warped thinking and it’s hazards and maybe support me along the way.

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