Some might call them intrusive thoughts, but they’re not just intrusive, they’re all consuming. I hit the gym today for respite, but even through ear blasting beats, these thoughts persisted.
Im alone now and I’m not really coping. I’ve eaten literally thousands of calories, and I’m feeling disgusting and defeated. I won’t self harm tonight as my arms still sting from previous endeavours.
There’s a little man asleep upstairs, protecting me from stupid actions.
I wish I was alone.