163. Intrusive thoughts.

Some might call them intrusive thoughts, but they’re not just intrusive, they’re all consuming. I hit the gym today for respite, but even through ear blasting beats, these thoughts persisted.

Im alone now and I’m not really coping. I’ve eaten literally thousands of calories, and I’m feeling disgusting and defeated. I won’t self harm tonight as my arms still sting from previous endeavours.

There’s a little man asleep upstairs, protecting me from stupid actions.

I wish I was alone.

Loopy x

Author: insideloopyshead

On paper I have the perfect life, good career, supportive and loving partner and a beautiful little son. But today I want to die. It’s time to set my thoughts free. Come along with my daily mental adventures and gain insight into warped thinking and it’s hazards and maybe support me along the way.

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