236. I don’t know what to do.

Nor do I know what to type here. Blogging is usually cathartic, but when I can’t find the words, it frustrates me.

Today, I’ve shipped little man off to nursery, and I’ve returned to bed. Today I’ve binged and burned. Today I’m feeling weak and hopeless.

Today I want to die. I don’t have any strength left, and I’m missing L. She just somehow always managed to soothe me.

I need her back. I can’t bring myself to call my newest CPN for help.

And anyway, I’m beyond help.

Loopy x

Author: insideloopyshead

On paper I have the perfect life, good career, supportive and loving partner and a beautiful little son. But today I want to die. It’s time to set my thoughts free. Come along with my daily mental adventures and gain insight into warped thinking and it’s hazards and maybe support me along the way. View all posts by insideloopyshead