My new CPN is great, honestly caring, fairly responsive and honest (Her face gives her away)
But she’s not L. L is the one person I felt at ease with most. She never judged, she was just amazingly kind and supportive in a nurturing way. She held hope for me when I could not. She’d help me find the positives, when I just couldn’t see them. And I wanted to engage, and do things well for her a little as much as me. She tried so much with me.
Now though, it’s all fucked. L has gone and I miss her sometimes intolarbly so.
Now we don’t seem to have a plan. I’ve been dumped from psychotherapy. And now my psychiatrist is leaving.
I just need L. No one comes close. But in typing I can hear say “come on what are you going to to ground yoursslf” what at you going to do that’s nice for you? She has the perfect tone and warmness in her manner. Some weeks on now and I’m not coping, and she the only person I’d give anything to see again
This system off meds are not working, pychology has dumped me and I’m feeling even more isolated and alone.
I’ve just swallowed several. Zopoclone
I’m a bit shaky but should be ok