343. Where has my confidence gone?……

and why is my head so foggy?

I gave a lecture today. I was nervous, and it showed. I fumbled my way through bullet points, searched my mind for factual recall that just wouldn’t come to me, and overall it was uncomfortable for me.

I could hear my own voice relayed around the lecture theatre and I hated it. My head is foggy though, forgetful and muddled. It’s very frustrating.

I don’t know if it’s my meds, or if this is just the new me now? Have my breakdowns done this to me?

On a side note, I now need to upload further supplementary resources for the students, to compensate for my incompetence.

Swagger, If you’re out there, look me up. I need you back.

Loopy x

Author: insideloopyshead

On paper I have the perfect life, good career, supportive and loving partner and a beautiful little son. But today I want to die. It’s time to set my thoughts free. Come along with my daily mental adventures and gain insight into warped thinking and it’s hazards and maybe support me along the way.

3 thoughts on “343. Where has my confidence gone?……”

  1. What you need is a summer holiday in New Zealand, just bring plenty of sun-block, and I will show you around some of our lovely countryside.

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