388. I’m safe.

I’ve caused so much stress and fear and worry. I had no idea, I still had followers from my previous location.

At about 5am thus morning, OH rolled me over and whispered softly; “loopy there’s a police man here to talk to you”  My instant thought was oh crap, I’m being arrested for possession!!

But no, he was here to check on my wellbeing.. He was here because someone identified a risk, and they acted on it.  He was here because someone cares. 

You know who you are.  (I wish I did too, so that I could call or email you, thank you, and reassure you that I’m ok.). I wish you were still involved with my care.

I’m not really ok, but this whole episode has prompted OH into action, it has prompted me to be more aware of the impacts of my actions.  I spoke last night to teary parents, and a cousin that the police had traced in efforts to find me.  I awoke to a phone inundated with missed calls and messages.

I’m going to demand more help.  I’m going to check out private care.  I’m going to somehow get through the next few days.

Whoever you are, thank you, thank you, THANK YOU.

Loopy x

Author: insideloopyshead

On paper I have the perfect life, good career, supportive and loving partner and a beautiful little son. But today I want to die. It’s time to set my thoughts free. Come along with my daily mental adventures and gain insight into warped thinking and it’s hazards and maybe support me along the way. View all posts by insideloopyshead