392. Little man

I look at him and I can see he’s cute and funny and full of prospects, but he just doesn’t feel like my boy. 
It’s like looking at someone else’s child.  I feel cold towards him, resentful and angry that I’m not doing better. 
I’m no good for him.  He deserves so much more.

His visit today has upset me, and I’m struggling.

Loopy x

Author: insideloopyshead

On paper I have the perfect life, good career, supportive and loving partner and a beautiful little son. But today I want to die. It’s time to set my thoughts free. Come along with my daily mental adventures and gain insight into warped thinking and it’s hazards and maybe support me along the way.

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