I feel like I could burst into tears. I don’t know how to feel.
I’m in shock, I’m scared and a little annoyed at myself for not feeling happier.
3 tests done now, and they’re all positive. I think I need a good cry to be honest.
1. What if I miscarry again? I couldn’t handle that!
2 What if I don’t miscarry, and actually have another baby? I couldn’t handle that!
3 What if my bad habits have already done irreparable damage? What if my meds are causing abnormalities right as I’m writing this? I couldn’t handle that?
4. What about a birth? Oh my god, not doing that again!!!! No no no NO NO!
5. What if this is all just too much?
Breathe Loopy !