238. I’m a waste of time.

She didn’t say so, but I could see it in her face. This evening I had a chat with my CPN. I’m doing nothing to help myself, so how on earth can they help me.

I’m starting to feel like, they think I’m an attention seeker. I think they’re fed up with me. I think I should just cut all ties and go it alone.

I can’t answer the “what is it that’s making you sad questions, nor can I answer the what is happy loopy like questions.

The only thing I know, is that life does not feel worth living. Life is too hard.

I need to find the courage to end it now, and do it right this time.

Loopy x