131. A Heart Attack.

OH’s father had a heart attack this morning. There calling it mild but lets be honest there is nothing mild about a heart attack.  We’re waiting to hear results back from his angiogram.

I can’t help but feel a little to blame.  My recent expolits have put a huge strain on both our families and I know OH’s father has really worried about us.  That being said; years of Type 1 Diabetes, and more recently poorly controlled blood sugars will have taken their toll. I do wonder though if I’m the straw that broke the camel’s back.

Come on Loopy, your a scientist, you know that it would have been a myriad of factors likely including the steady build up of atherosclerotic plaques. Nonetheless stress induced high blood pressure won’t have helped.

I’ve just come back from a bike ride.  It’s dark out and I managed to get a little lost; which is common for me to be fair.  It would be fine except my bike lights low battery indicator came on, and that’s not ideal when your not sure of the quickest way home.  I really must buy a spare and carry it with me.   I didn’t really want to go this evening. I’m feeling a bit anxious and uneasy, but I munched on some sweets earlier and the guilt forced me out the door. I also needed to go and buy a toothbrush as my handsome Little man decided he would scrub our bog with mine today!!!!

I’m glad I went.

Loopy x.

Author: insideloopyshead

On paper I have the perfect life, good career, supportive and loving partner and a beautiful little son. But today I want to die. It’s time to set my thoughts free. Come along with my daily mental adventures and gain insight into warped thinking and it’s hazards and maybe support me along the way.

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