It was a pleasure to blog yesterday as I was documenting good spirits. It’s even more of a pleasure today as I’ve now had 2 good days in a row!! It’s been quite a while since that has happened. Again I don’t know why. Maybe its the meds, or maybe I’m just slowing readjusting to life outside the walls of the psych ward, but whatever it is; it feels good.
Today has also been a productive day in terms of taking steps to recovery and returning to lifes daily rituals. I took little man to nursery this afternoon. It went much better than I had anticipated. He was a little clingy, but there were no tears or tantrums and I was even able to leave him for a little while.
We then braved the commute home during rush hour, squashed like sardeens into the sweat box that rumbles along tracks and stops at every hole in the hedge. I put headphones on little man today and allowed him to watch cartoons on my phone. I never wanted to be one of those parents that shoves a scrren in front of their toddler at every oppertunity, but today it worked. He was content for the entire journey and more importantly my heart rate stayed within normal limits. I guess if it makes my commute less stressful then it’s worth it.
I also had coffee today with my closest work confidante. It was lovely to see her again, and I don’t have to hide who I am with her which is such a relief. We chatted about all sorts but she also mentioned that another colleague is off sick at the moment. Off course I don’t wish illness on anyone, but I was just a little happy to hear its not just me landing people in the crapper, picking up my responsabilities.
I also know that I have someone I can talk to when i return who understands the difficulties of mental ill health, the challenges of returning to work, and she’s someone who will take the piss out off me at every oppertunity and will help me to see the funny side off all lifes dramas!.
I’ve just come back from the gym and my endorphins are pumping. OH has put little man to bed, the house is peaceful and I’m going to have a cuppa.